i cried ytd. my eyes were swollen i couldnt open my eyes. dreadful. :/ cramps cramps cramps. im being cramped by the cramps for the whole day. dreadful. :/ it will be worst still tmr. i dont feel like going to school tmr. if only your here things will be different. i did my maths everyday. wow, unbelieveable. i realised i've changed to another person. someone who is selfish. i no longer talk so much. i no longer smile or laugh so much anymore. yah. thr is only studiesand himin my mind. i dont bothr abt othr stuffs anymore.
someone like you dont deserve my respect. think before you talk please.
let me help you to paint a smile on your face, i will make you the second happiest person in the world. because the happiest person is me. hahs let me love you, baby. giving someone a hug is good 'cos you can let the person feel your love and warmth.
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i dislike sec three life alot. i think i have been wasting my time on alot of nonsense. hmwrk is what i have everyday. esp maths. practice make perfect why not spend my time practising it rathr than wasting my time on some nonsensical stuffs yeah. im sure i can at least get an A2 for maths SOON. i've been sleeping early evrynight. is very surprising to see shirui handing hmwrk on time. hahaha. shes much more hardworking than i am now. okays, i shall be much more hardworking than her. hahs teachers teach, i listen.
i've been missing it alot everyday. dearest*
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FINALLY FIFTEEN. birthday over. which means ESTHER TAN, YOU MUST GROW UP ALRDY DONT BE CHILDISH AND LET 67* LOOK DOWN ON YOU. hahaha. 67* im just kidding. :D finally fifteen quite gd actually. old alrdy but i can have my ATM card. LOL shopping spree no worry then. but anw, thankyou PEOPLE :D esp, huibing and fangjie. oops! im not bias, but jst tht they were the ones accompanying me for both days and evn count dwn for me. LOL huibing bought the crazy ribbon and SPRAYED me all over whn it strikes twelve. we played the fire-sparkles on the way hm. hahaha. so cool lah! hah and they spent alot of money on my birthday! sorry&thankyou. darhling, gladys, donavan, huiqi, fangjie, huibing and BOY-FRIENDS were thr. they bought cake for me and celebrated it under the void deck. huiqi, pls dont be jealous. she said tht i was bias towards the BOY-FRIENDS. hahaha. i was jst SURPRISED to see them ard. oh yah' thankyou PEOPLE for the adidas jacket! hahaha. d: ytd we went emmeline workplace and she bought cakes again. this was a super mini cake but super cute. LOL with gummy bears and even mouse on it. (((: received quite a number of presents which means that whn their birthday arrive i have to buy for them! hahaha. THANKYOU EVERYONE VERY VERY MUCH! :D not to forget thankyou junxing and amy char yeeting and joy for the presents. d:
someday, i will be a winner. i dont wanna be a loser. yah anddddddddd dont be such a meanie to me. i will prove you wrong. (:
; someday you will know why i still love you.
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tomorrow's tomorrow is the day. but im aint happy now. i almost tear, but i hold on to my tears. i dont wna have a sad birthday. alrights. why do i have to see this? my hrt is brkn. dont lie to me. i so hate liars. if you can't promise dont promise. someone said ' pay more attention on your studies ' oh' i wish i can but i can't. im trying to, i paid attention in all the lessons. i wonder what is this about. HRT-BRKN. maybe is karma, fated to leave me. fuckit.
oh man. HAPPY BIRTHDAY?! why not it be death day? i hope i will be like destiny.
oie, dont build a fucking world for me lah.
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HRMMMS. 3 more days to my BIRTHDAY. oh' tell me people. tell me how to celebrate. hahaha oh' nevertheless school is still boring. teachers is still the same. nag non-stop except for mrs hendra. LOL, she kept talking about breast here and thr.
YEAH, 3 more days to my BIRTHDAY ! ((:
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yuck yucks yuckss. i feel like quitting school. oh yeah. with this kind of teachers ard, i will nv get to enjoy myself in school. oh man. fuckit. I WANT MISS LINI AS MY F&N TEACHER LAH! wha lao. im disappointed. :/ anw, huibing dont be sad. im like you. i lost something that i love. yah, i still love you. yah, i still miss you. if thr's a chance to go back to the past, im sure everyone will go. humans are always selfish. i get excited to go to school if i get to see ' haha ' everyday. i still prefer punggol school, im used to the sec two life i had. for now, i had to walk different directions to cls. no point looking up to the cls above. maybe im like eleanor. im not going to forget the past, im going to keep it as memory. only shirui knw how excited im today. darhling means darhling, she still understand me the best. even whn im in the blues she still feels it. 3sincerity? no. i still miss 2diligence. esp partner, girls and aris eugene. ANW, I JUST FEEL LIKE QUITTING SCHOOL. yeah uh.