BURPS.

changed blog.

2006-01-31T07:46:00.000-08:00

hellos people, i've changed my blog already!
http://vintagelove-.blogspot.com/
THANKYOU! :D

CRAMPED.

2006-01-15T01:31:00.000-08:00

i cried ytd.
my eyes were swollen i couldnt open my eyes.
dreadful. :/
cramps cramps cramps.
im being cramped by the cramps for the whole day.
dreadful. :/
it will be worst still tmr.
i dont feel like going to school tmr.
if only your here things will be different.
i did my maths everyday. wow, unbelieveable.
i realised i've changed to another person.
someone who is selfish. i no longer talk so much.
i no longer smile or laugh so much anymore. yah.
thr is only studies and him in my mind.
i dont bothr abt othr stuffs anymore.

someone like you dont deserve my respect.
think before you talk please.

let me help you to paint a smile on your face,
i will make you the second happiest person in the world.
because the happiest person is me. hahs
let me love you, baby.

giving someone a hug is good 'cos you can let the person feel your love and warmth.

FRIDAY THIRTEEN.

2006-01-13T06:57:00.000-08:00

i dislike sec three life alot.
i think i have been wasting my time on alot of nonsense.
hmwrk is what i have everyday.
esp maths. practice make perfect why not spend my time practising it rathr than wasting my time on some nonsensical stuffs yeah.
im sure i can at least get an A2 for maths SOON.
i've been sleeping early evrynight.
is very surprising to see shirui handing hmwrk on time.
hahaha. shes much more hardworking than i am now.
okays, i shall be much more hardworking than her. hahs
teachers teach, i listen.

i've been missing it alot everyday.
dearest*

im FIFTEEN.

2006-01-09T06:56:00.000-08:00

FINALLY FIFTEEN.
birthday over.
which means ESTHER TAN, YOU MUST GROW UP ALRDY DONT BE CHILDISH AND LET 67* LOOK DOWN ON YOU. hahaha.
67* im just kidding. :D
finally fifteen quite gd actually. old alrdy but i can have my ATM card. LOL
shopping spree no worry then.
but anw, thankyou PEOPLE :D
esp, huibing and fangjie. oops!
im not bias, but jst tht they were the ones accompanying me for both days and evn count dwn for me. LOL
huibing bought the crazy ribbon and SPRAYED me all over whn it strikes twelve.
we played the fire-sparkles on the way hm. hahaha. so cool lah! hah
and they spent alot of money on my birthday! sorry&thankyou.
darhling, gladys, donavan, huiqi, fangjie, huibing and BOY-FRIENDS were thr. they bought cake for me and celebrated it under the void deck. huiqi, pls dont be jealous. she said tht i was bias towards the BOY-FRIENDS. hahaha. i was jst SURPRISED to see them ard.
oh yah' thankyou PEOPLE for the adidas jacket! hahaha. d:
ytd we went emmeline workplace and she bought cakes again. this was a super mini cake but super cute. LOL with gummy bears and even mouse on it. (((:
received quite a number of presents which means that whn their birthday arrive i have to buy for them! hahaha.
THANKYOU EVERYONE VERY VERY MUCH! :D
not to forget thankyou junxing and amy char yeeting and joy for the presents. d:

someday, i will be a winner.
i dont wanna be a loser. yah
anddddddddd
dont be such a meanie to me.
i will prove you wrong. (:

; someday you will know why i still love you.

A AINT HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

2006-01-06T06:51:00.000-08:00

tomorrow's tomorrow is the day.
but im aint happy now.
i almost tear, but i hold on to my tears.
i dont wna have a sad birthday.
alrights.
why do i have to see this?
my hrt is brkn.
dont lie to me.
i so hate liars.
if you can't promise dont promise.
someone said ' pay more attention on your studies '
oh' i wish i can but i can't.
im trying to, i paid attention in all the lessons.
i wonder what is this about.
HRT-BRKN.
maybe is karma, fated to leave me.
fuckit.

oh man.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY?!
why not it be death day?
i hope i will be like destiny.

oie, dont build a fucking world for me lah.

HRMMMS.

2006-01-05T03:55:00.000-08:00

HRMMMS.
3 more days to my BIRTHDAY.
oh' tell me people.
tell me how to celebrate. hahaha
oh' nevertheless school is still boring.
teachers is still the same. nag non-stop except for mrs hendra.
LOL, she kept talking about breast here and thr.

YEAH, 3 more days to my BIRTHDAY ! ((:

yuck yucks yuckss

2006-01-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

yuck yucks yuckss.
i feel like quitting school.
oh yeah. with this kind of teachers ard, i will nv get to enjoy myself in school.
oh man. fuckit.
I WANT MISS LINI AS MY F&N TEACHER LAH! wha lao.
im disappointed.
:/
anw, huibing dont be sad.
im like you. i lost something that i love.
yah, i still love you. yah, i still miss you.
if thr's a chance to go back to the past, im sure everyone will go.
humans are always selfish.
i get excited to go to school if i get to see ' haha ' everyday.
i still prefer punggol school, im used to the sec two life i had.
for now, i had to walk different directions to cls.
no point looking up to the cls above.
maybe im like eleanor. im not going to forget the past, im going to keep it as memory.
only shirui knw how excited im today.
darhling means darhling, she still understand me the best.
even whn im in the blues she still feels it.
3sincerity? no. i still miss 2diligence.
esp partner, girls and aris eugene.
ANW, I JUST FEEL LIKE QUITTING SCHOOL.
yeah uh.

last day of twenty o-five

2005-12-30T21:34:00.000-08:00

is the last day of twenty o-five.
i hope i will have a blessed year ahead ((:
work hard, study hard, play hard.
and friends, we need to study hard and play hard together! (:
i pray for eleanor that she will not get too upset over that ass.
im sorry if somehow i mentioned bout' it but dont get upset. try to get over it?
that day, yah that day.
i was practically sad over it but i told myself. dont get upset over a lil thing, be happy over everything.
i believe is my fault. is just something that is believeable.
sighs.
i just dont know how to summarise the whole year this year.
is it a good or a bad year? i dont know.
but i still remembered once, my friend said this to me ' you posted those sad or childish or happy stuffs when you grow up you will be the one laughing at it ' HRMMMS, i think hes right.
over the days. my mom have been nagging at me for non-stop.
asking me to better get my going to school stuffs ready.
oh' sch starting soon. :/
so fast, i will be sec three. then sec four then graduate! hahaha
oh yeah, and i wish jiaen was back to us.
i miss her so do huibing and fangjie. HRMMMS
i hope shes fine, and real fine. i hope she really quit smoking. yah.
andddddddddddddddd
thank you people for those christmas present. (:
oh'
andddddddddddddd
esther's bday is soon.
8 of january. hahaha
oh'
sorry and thank you to people.
hahaha. maybe i have offended them? or maybe they have helped me? HRMMMS.
((:

..

2005-12-28T06:56:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wish you will jst shut your gap up.
i dont wna poke my nose into your business.
2006 is coming and i wna have a blessed year. hahaha
sch reopening soon. no more late nights and all.
im jaded now.
anddddddddddd.
if you dont trust me, dont tlk to me.
you can jolly well throw away the gift i gave you.
((((:

IT ISNT MERRY AT ALL.

2005-12-26T07:53:00.000-08:00

merry christmas isnt merry at all.
fucking christmas.
fucking twentyfifth.
fucking shit.
now when im sad no one bother to be here.
hahaha. what the point of having so much friends.
i couldnt stop crying. ohmy.
slit wont help.
drink wont help.
what to do.
one moment you said this and another moment you said that.

FUCKING CHRISTMAS.

2005-12-25T09:10:00.000-08:00

ytd at town was great.
is pretty fun whn you can actually sprayed snow at ppl you dont know.
but is irritating whn ppl sprayed snow at you. hahaha\
aiyah more on huibing and fangjie entries lah. i lazy.

i've a fucking christmas.
a fucking day for today.
oh man.
fuck fuck fuck.
i miss 446 BADLY. rahhs`!
i dont want it too, but i can't.
URGHS.
i had the whole bottle of breezer and huibing and fangjie drank a lil'
what a christmas to spend.
fucking christmas.

CHRISTMAS EVE.

2005-12-23T22:29:00.000-08:00

oh man.
fuck it.
i wna have a brainwash.
damned.
rahhs`!

i miss cousin all of a sudden.
on every christmas eve or christmas we will celebrate.
and exchange presents but not now anymore.
ahhhh, nevermind.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE.
lotsofloves.

A FUCKING STORY.

2005-12-23T01:44:00.000-08:00

i stopped reading it last night i thought it was more like a ghost story. but i read it today.
is vrh interesting. and i THINK the name of the story shld call 'FUCK' lol' thr's so much vulgarities inside lah. ahas.
fuck here fuck there one.
hahaha =x
huishan rmb to lend me the BOOK ! ((:

''We cannot be a couple. You cannot be my girlfriend. I have my reasons. So, don’t you ever fall in love with me, okay?”

Fuck. Damn. Ass. Bastard. Idiot. Silly, damn, fucking bastard ass idiot!

TO MY PRECIOUS.

2005-12-22T08:02:00.000-08:00

i received precious eleanor x'mas card. and i was SHOCKED ! haha
she's the first to send me leh. hahaha
anw, THANK YOU THANK YOU.
i hope you did enjoyed your bday. haha ((:
and yesyes, im going to dedicate this entry to YOU !
though next year we will have less time to spend together but im glad, bcos you and me take lit too ! hahaha.
we can share things and all.
andddddd I MISSED YOU! )x
hahaha
THANK YOU SWEETIE FOR BEING THR FOR ME ALL THESE WHILE.
not to forget those words.
I LOVE YOU ELEANOR ! (:
andddd not only being a sweet to me, she also a granny to me.
she nags at me alot. hahaha
OKAYS, I WILL MISS YOU TOO !
MERRY X'MAS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ! ((((:

SOME IDIOTS LIKE US.

2005-12-21T06:37:00.000-08:00

someone jst treated us like some idiots or morons.
f***ing irritating.
i sooooooo hate you now la.
fancy treating us like spare tyres la?
i rather be a stranger to you than being a spare tyre of yours.
rahhs`!

UNDESIRABLE DAYS.

2005-12-18T21:34:00.000-08:00

i dont want it to end.
if this gna continue i've got nothing to say.
i miss.
the memories flashed back in my mind.
i miss honeypie.

NOMOREALREADY.

2005-12-17T07:16:00.000-08:00

i wanted to gave a surprise but no more already.
i dont know if i should jst give or what.
HRMMMS.
obviously god didnt answer my prayers.
:///
i dont know what to do now.

AM I SAD?

2005-12-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

when one is unhappy whatever games one play sure lost one.
i've got no christmas wish but all i asked for is love and concern.

HAHAHA

2005-12-15T09:02:00.000-08:00

im going to open a restaurant in the future called 'ILOVEYOU' and fengru going to open a restaurant called 'IHATEYOU'
hes going to hire CHEF to cook while im going to be the FIRST WOMAN CHEF to bring the WOMAN PROUD. hahaha.
in almost all the restaurants all the CHEFS are normally males. so i wanted to be the FIRST WOMAN CHEF WHO COOKS GOOD FOOD.
and fengru actually look down on my culinary skills. he actually kept cursing me and my culinary skills.
oh man. im going to prove him wrong. hahaha
SUPPORT ME FRIENDS!
lols

i think im crazy.

REGRETS.

2005-12-15T07:09:00.000-08:00

regrets.

i hope someone can wish me an anti- cockroach dream tonight again.

i hope that's true.
i will be pleased to listen to it.

i can hardly remember how you look like already.
ohh no.

sometimes i just love blood so much BUT
sometimes i just find it stupid to love blood.

ahh, nevermind.

WHAT A WORLD.

2005-12-14T04:23:00.000-08:00

what a world.
i lost two friends from this.
oh man. fucking hell la.
wtf.

i thought of it AGAIN.
whenever,
whatever,
i did i will think of it.

i hope things will get back to the NORMAL.
hopefully;
i thought but it is GONE already.

im still having the oh-im-still-not-in-a-good-mood .
hell man.

no point asking me to cheer up or whatever shit.
im not going to listen or what.

all of a sudden i so love blood.

SOMEDAYS SOMETIMES SOMEHOW

2005-12-12T21:54:00.000-08:00

SOMEDAYS SOMETIMES SOMEHOW.
I THOUGHT BUT NEVERMIND.
*NOT SUPPOSE TO BE BUT YET IT HAPPENED.
SOMEDAYS SOMETIMES SOMEHOW,
IT HAPPENED.
THIS SHIT JUST SPOILT MY MOOD.
ANTI-LIARS I THOUGHT. BUT,
IT IS GONE.
BYEBYE THEN.

OHMY

2005-12-11T07:48:00.000-08:00

mygod.
im having a quick or rather fast short term memory.
in awhile i wanted to do this and in awhile i forgot what i want to do already.
i just couldnt fall aslp.
maybe i shall catch la pi xiao xin ltr.
oh man. evryone is occupied with stuffs and i got no one to tlk to.
without him around im sooooo bored larrs.

* i hate idiots who irritates. lol'

heh.
mesmerised over it;

un-interesting.

2005-12-09T21:26:00.000-08:00

my life is boring.
can someone please make my life more interesting ?
i wna change my life.
i dont wna to have sluts and bitches walking about in my life trying to get people attention.
i dont wna hate people.
i dont wna make enemies.
my friend ask if im selling my smile because i kept smiling.
i said that a smile a day keep an enemy away.

PIGS DONT FLY UP THE SKY.
MY ASS HAVE GOT WINGS TO FLY.
FLY OVER THE MOON.

LOVELOVE;
<3

ESTHER'S SOON TO BE BIRTHDAY.

2005-12-08T00:48:00.000-08:00

is 8 december today!
which means is exactly one month away from my BIRTHDAY.
so people can SAVE money NOW !
ESTHER'S SOON TO BE BIRTHDAY ! (((:

happy birthday junjie. (:

FUCK OFF ASS.

2005-12-06T21:52:00.000-08:00

damned.
shit you ass.
is MY LIFE and how i want it to be like.
if you dont like must well FUCK OFF.

2005-12-06T07:14:00.000-08:00

i wonder whn zusheng going ovrseas.
he said he will bring back snow as present for me and i tld him by the time he comes back. it melts into water, i guess.
he said at least it's ONCE snow before. haas;

oh i think. i better have some habits of sleeping early.
people ard me kept saying better sleep early if not you will have pimples. hahaha
i wonder that's true. oh' my mom too. kept nagging at me about this. lol.
so to be safe i better have some habits of sleeping early then!

yada yada, im looking for A MATHS tuition teacher!
anyone knw any?
it will be the best if the teacher come to my hse and it shall not be toooo expensive. hahaha
ahh, anything la. not so expensive can alrdy and the tuition centre or whatsoever cant be too far from my hse.
hahaha
i seems to be asking for so much.

ahh, i hate my hair.
frkng ugly man.

LOVELOVE!
<3

I WANNA QUIT

2005-12-04T22:57:00.000-08:00

this gonna be my three hundred and nineteen entry.

i wanna quit.
damned.
rahhs`!

..

2005-12-04T07:54:00.000-08:00

i have so much to complain about.
:/
ahh, next time then complain.

donavan please save money.
b'cos we are going to buy ben&jerry ice-cream! (((:

christmas is coming.
esther's birthday is coming.
so remember to SAVE money.
wheeee

LOVELOVE!
<3

wtf.

2005-12-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

says:
i hate it when u always being so xia lan

oh yeah. he said that.

SHASHA

2005-12-01T08:10:00.000-08:00

shasha is sososososo cute la.
ILOVESHASHA!
whn i see shasha i feel like bringing her home.
mayb sme day i shld visit cousin hse to visit shasha.
mayb i shall bring her down for a walk. wahhars
i think huibing also agree with it la. shasha's adorable.
i feel like going to cousin hse now. :/
i think i miss shasha. :/

thanks to junxing i can have bacardi.
hahaha
(((:

GOD GRANDMA

2005-11-30T06:21:00.000-08:00

she's dead.
nothing can bring her back.
get over it;

UTTERLY SAD.
nobody was here to listen.
nobody was here to accompany.
even if your here NOW is also no use.
PEOPLE sososo get to enjoy but i can't

how i wish i can get sick until i could hardly speak.
how i wish i can get sick until i could hardly run not even walk.
how i wish i can get sick until i could hardly smile not even cry.
damned.

jaded.

2005-11-28T06:46:00.000-08:00

jaded.

tomorrow will be another tired day.

im sososo going to be alone tomorrow.
:/

im just not-in-the-mood today.
:/

i sure can't sleep well without honeypie sweet talk.
aww

sighs.
i think i will miss her.

poof

2005-11-27T01:55:00.000-08:00

poof.

i spent most of the time sleeping today.
a pretty bad headache.
my stomach is GROWLING.
i need FOOD now.

shakes.

honeypie become a hunk now.
hahaha

pokes.

more here.
i watched a show and realised tht korea teacher are inhuman.
hit kids like abusing kids. pity-

headache getting worst.
sighs.

dizzy spells seems to have hook on me already.
damned.
my heart kept beating and is a of course thing.
but the thing is tht my heart beat vrh hard.
i can feel the heart beating vrh well. :/
ahh, i jst dont knw how to explain.
:/

i needed one's company badly now.
im feeling terrible.
:/

you pray that i will not die so soon will you?

he's an idiot but nevertheless a sweet.

2005-11-25T01:04:00.000-08:00

pissed with honeypie last night.
but nevertheless honeypie try to pamper me.
honeypie is an idiot but nevertheless a sweet.
sometimes a stupid creature but sometimes a candy bar.

honeypie look GORGEOUS.

im waiting for the day to come to receive darhling's sweet chocolate!
yada yada. rmb to bring swing girls if you see this. hahaha

pool later. ((:
bacardi next time.

upload the pics next time.

sweetTREATS

2005-11-24T08:35:00.000-08:00

desire
yummycakes
brownies
peppermint ice-cream
mango ice-cream
the BEST is : ben&jerry ice-cream
i think about food all the time b'cos im HUNGRY.

i can't wait for the chalet for the foursome! hahaha
a SOON TO BE then.
i also can't wait to visit emmeline again! haha
we had pool and dart board for the first time. so fun larrs.
for more information can visit fangjie's blog. (:

; even if your heart is broken, your heart will still continue to beat.

sad

2005-11-22T22:43:00.000-08:00

):

where's unprettaye.
whn im sad she will make me smile.
:/

like what i did wrong again.
falling apart,

i've got no one to talk to.

doodoodoo.

sweetTREATS :
ones gummies candies
tens chocolates bars
hundreds creamy cakes
thousands ice-creams

asslikeyou

2005-11-22T07:40:00.000-08:00

yaya! i remembered sth.
shirui ' PUI ' at me on my face ytd. kaos!
LOL but luckily thr's nth on my face.

yada yada.
i love to say i dont knw.
what's wrong with it.
-.-

i watched some part of the superstar for the sch one today.
some sang nice some was horrible.
humans are just so sarcastic.
i thought puayboon wna join ? hahaha

im touched la, ass.
saw this?
hahaha

if only thr's a guy who can sing well, sing me ' hui you na me yi tian '
i will be sooooo TOUCHED la.
(((:

lalalala

sentosa

2005-11-21T08:13:00.000-08:00

sentosa today.
kind of pitiful and lonely.
pathetic fours.
i drank lots of water and i almost died.
eventually, i forgot how to swim alrdy.
shirui got seasick in the sea. hahaha
im bored and nobody's here to entertain me.
cold feet.
bloated.
need to exercise.
more chocolates please.

HONEYPIE

2005-11-20T07:04:00.000-08:00

a thumbs up for alvamar overture. ( not sure iszit liddat spell )
it's really nice! (:

i want to learn to play harp. ((:

i will make my kids learn piano in the future.
hahaha
that's my dream! (:

how i wish hihs band will have their own concert too.
HRMMS

without mom ard, is like a person without both hands.
:/
but it brings me and dad relationship closer. (:
okays, im soooooo bored now.
im going to wait for mom to come back home.
dad's slping and bro's in the camp.
:/

ahh, i wonder why i always lost to jialuo.
he's such a suan-er cans!
i need to learn more suan-ing skills to beat him.
hahaha

HONEYPIE; xin ku ni le. work so hard.
(((:
dont say tht my entry dont have your name hor. hahaha
<3

fangjie suggest tht i shld start reading more books b'cos im taking lit next year.
HRMMS
i think i will like to start reading but im LAZY.
and im not a bookworm, i dont like books.
:/
i will consider again.

im craving for :
cookies
candies
chocolates
ice-cream

BAOCHUAN; YOUR MISSED BY ESTHER* (:
DONT BE SAD, DONT WORRY
I'LL BE THERE TO WIPE YOUR TEARS, MY DEAR.
SMILE EHS, PRETTY

stuck.

2005-11-18T22:04:00.000-08:00

i know the reasons myself.

dinner alone tonight.
:/

aches here and there.
it show tht i didnt stretch my body or exercise for a long time.
i wanted to go for a jog every morning but im lazy to get up.
eeks. i dont wna be a FATFAT.

i have a urge of going to the airport to look at the airplanes now.
dont knw why.
HRMMS.

i jst feel like having PEPPER RICE for dinner tonight.
but dreadful, esther got no one company.
:/

im in need for money to go shoppings.

ass`

2005-11-18T06:49:00.000-08:00

such an ass.

ahh, i jst miss tht time whn we were in KL. hahaha
i couldnt help laughing out loud at huiqi stupid actions in the hotel.
hahaha

frkn' hell.

2005-11-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

im suppose to keep cool now.
im jst pissed.
rahhs`!

bettr tlk abt sth else.
paid two dollars and i can have earthquake at swensens.
what a good deal. hahaha

honeypie has been a great honey to me yesterday.
((:

dumdeedoo.

2005-11-11T21:53:00.000-08:00

bored.
singapore is so small thr's nowhr to go too.
sick of going to town. but next week gna town with girlfriend and all.
movies! (:
emily rose, i want. but im afraid, it will corrupt my mind. haha
cello. chicken lil' sky high. just like heaven. (:

dumdeedoo.

im talking to a nobody. i talk to someone who doesn't reply. how dumb right. i shall shut up larrs. no point talking to you so much yet you doesn't even listen.
im sad again. slits no more.
can someone jst ask me out for a coffee ? im troubled.
huibing dont worry, if you didnt tell me i didnt evn notice.

i felt like im a big sis trying to entertain tht lil' boy.
i dont want lar.

back to the same old thing.
im being accused of my faults again.
why can't thr be one time ppl will stop blaming me?
ASSYS'' i mean whn everything goes wrong mean my fault?
it so FCUK one cans.
so it means if thr's tsunami one day is my faults lar?
yada yada, he's stressed. so my fault for not giving in to him larr?
i dont wna get blame and say until like my faults can.
is so IDIOTIC.
why most of the girls get pampered except me ?
fcukn' ppl stay in fcukn' wrld-
why can't be a day i will always stay happy?
i cried almost evry night again. wtf
if i really get accused of sth which i did not do and ppl insist that is my faults or what, i think can lead me to my death.
my grave`
i wna burn all my brain cells. i want them all dead.
i dont want to have any memories.
i dont want to be a girl who always get blamed since young.

ASSYS''

2005-11-09T07:27:00.000-08:00

drifting? ah! im nt tlking abt the car drifting. i knw NUTS abt cars. evrytime whn i knw NUTS , huibing will knw PEANUTS. she always knw a PEA than me. ahh, this doesn't concern about the drifting. WHATEVER;
tht YUCKS feeling. i can so so cry again. dont tell me not to cry anymore, i guess you wont be able to wipe my tears again.
in a while i was so happy chatting in a second i was SAD. darn SAD.
ASSYS'' no one was thr. i cldn't find someone to share tht PAIN.
im trying to be anothr esther that why im not the esther you knw.
i pray hard almost evry night. im not in your religion i pray to your god. hoping he will give you motivation to study, guide you well. you tld me tht you lost confidence and i tld him to have faith in you.
i once askd you ' god will answer your prayers meh ? i dont believe '
but i tried and he did answer my prayers. now, what i get what back was get accusing of sth which i didnt do and i dont want it. the YUCKS feeling, i can so cry again. i dont wna get accuse.
eventually he said this to me '
i guess u wna see me getting bad results for O levels ' i hope you will think. if i really wna see you getting bad results thn why i shld pray for you ? i must well see you stay back next year? and see you cry whn you take your results. i knw im harsh but i dont knw what to do.
nobody was thr to listen.
' slit ' the wrd came into my mind but i promise ppl i wont do tht anymore.
WHERE'S HUIBING ? I YEARN FOR YOUR HUG !

FOURTEENTH

2005-11-08T22:29:00.000-08:00

i dont understand why ppl kept asking me to go wrk. hahs-
now, my parents still can afford to bring me up why wrk. and thr's no job to do. me and mister lim said tht die die we also wont wrk in mac. dominic didnt get much commission selling ice-cream too. 10% i think can eat shit only. hahaha` so tht's it. dont bothr asking me again. (:
im not a rich brat like zusheng. haha` he tld me to treat him for a meal , taxi fare and movie tickets. haas; meal ? can, why not. taxi fare is a NO thing 'cos i dont take cab unless rushing smewhr. im not a rich brat who take cab evrywhr i go, is eithr MRT or BUS. ((: movie? can lar, only in weekdays. which is much more cheaper' hahs.
and i dont anyhow spend money ! lols'' seriously, i think i knw how to save money comparing to huiqi. hahas` tht girl ? she use money dont knw like what.
but only to donavan, he said i anyhow spend money. wait till he saw how huiqi spend money and listen to her mom's theory. hahas
somehow, i still want to be a rich kid- so i can get what i want.
hoping money to drop frm heaven is a dream on thing. hahaha

i still remember what eleanor told me. she told me life is just full of ups and downs left and right round and round and more. i just want to tell those theory to my buddy but she just dont want to listen up. is very saddening to see her liddat. she just lockd herself up and keep quiet. i felt bad as a friend, what a lousy friend am i. i couldn't even cheer her up whn she's down. she just dont want to listen to me. she doesn't evn tell me her sorrows, it make me so fcukd' up. she rathr tell someone else and dont tell me. what am i ? i dont evn knw anything at all thing huibing came and tld me. only yearn tht now she will listen to me and dont avoid reality anymore. tomorrow is a mystery ? face tomorrow as a begining of life, dont turn back anymore. i hope she will sees this. (: cheerup buddy.

lost of friends. no more prtnr, hi5 friend, sunshine, boochuan, amy they all and more.
prtnr and hi5 friend are so smart , they deserve to go into triple sc and bio. good for amy and ppl, they still get together and go to the same cls. my sunshine went to geog cls and boochuan in art cls. i got no idea how the cls gna be like next yr. ' ESTHER YOU SHLD SHUT UP IN CLS AND PAY ATTENTION IN CLS , ESP MATHS '

; im so in love with bacardi.

FIFTEEN

2005-11-08T07:22:00.000-08:00

threesome went for shopping it will be nicer if one more join us.
shopped` but i think is not enough.
took neos ! hahs- incredible right.
OKAYS! we need more money for shopping.
AWWW i dont want to get into tht cls though i like the cls name.
jst sucks. AHH ! with them inside ?! i can die lar'
regret not studying hard to get into BIO or GEOG.
no choice now. only yearns for a better friendship with them. hahaha
what can i say ? hahs- i dont have the courage to tell.
FIFTEEN MORE DAYS'- (((:

MONDAYY

2005-11-06T22:10:00.000-08:00

today is my mom's bday .
and i think she's sad 'cos my frkn' fathr quarrel with her last night .
to think tht my frkn' fathr was so unreasonable . AHH ! forget it . shan't eleborate anymore . they are my parents afterall , who want to see both of them sad ? i shall treat my mom to dinnr tonight :D as a birthday present .
is MONDAYY and im STUCKK at hm again .
huibing & huiqi went to wrk and i bet fangjie dont want to go out too .
he hurt my buddy ! i dont knw how to cheer her up , tried diff ways but couldn't cheer her up . i can only say they are jst SUCKRRS' they shld simply go and die lars' FRKN'ASSYS
* dont say forever it means nothing at all .
i want to have more friends lars .
some went to have fun and didnt ask me out , tht sucks .
i dont want to be a nobody .
shirui tld me tht cloud nine means happy and i tld her is a choco brand .
i think they no longr sell it anymore so is a old choco brand 'cos tht econ dwnstairs used to sell it . haha
craps` to keep myself entertain .
my craps doesnt seems effective anymore .
sighs
* I LOVE MY THREE GREATEST GFS !

SUNDAYY

2005-11-06T01:01:00.000-08:00

sunday again , it is always so boring .
dreadful* parents out for malaysia and nth to eat at hm .
me and bro woke up with nth to eat .
usually whn woke up we will have sth to eat but not now .
therefore , the siblings went out to eat .
dont knw why my bro nv fails to make me laugh . hahaha
he went for some soccer match for the police force and im left at home .
felt neglected .
it seems im alone in this wrld- haha
felt real neglected lars .
they are really heartless creatures . why are they so evil ?
HMMMS , wonder whn's my turn ? is not tht i want to think abt it but is the feeling .
the only FOURSOME ? hahaha` only huibing understand this .
someone tld me to RELY ON GOD ? oh' mayb .
let nature take it course . hahaha
if i dont tlk will i become dumb ?
is 5.18 PM and IM HUNGRY .
what to have for dinner ?

BOREDD

2005-11-05T06:27:00.000-08:00

i spent most of the time sleeping and eating today.
had ice-cream cake ytd.
the cake was meant for mom.
bro paid money to buy but i go and buy it.
*SLURPS.
eating is a pleasure.
why not ?
i will grow fat seriously;
i want to go on a diet :D
had a LONG NAP, woke up with nth to do.
bored, and watchd tv.
haha` and food again ! LOL
i wonder why my granny cook so nice. hahaha
IM BORED AGAIN.
nobody's going to be at hm tmr and my mom forbids of letting me out.
she wants me to look after the hse, IM NOT A DOG.
i dont *BARK , i *TALK
ahas. i dont care i need to go out.
huibing, huiqi, fangjie ! ask me out cans ?
or sme othr ppl ask me out !
if what done can be undone it will be great.
gameboy is nice but gameboy games are boring.
i dont play maple or whatevr computer games , i play gameboy :D
why not you ppl can consider buying me new games. hahaha
oh ya. suddenly thought of sth.
i miss the singing session i had with prtnr. haha
during lessons, the both of us will find a song tht both of us knw how to sing and we will sing it together.
and i rmb sth, i was crazy tht day thn was taking his phone pulling his shirt walking round and round of the clsroom and singing song.
and i dont rmb this scene but he rmb tht.
thr was once during chinese lesson and i was trying to pay attention.
he got me irritated 'cos he kept tlking to me disturbing me and all, thn evntually i seperate my table from him and sat alone.
whn he saw tht , he was stoning lar' cos im really angry with him. but actually not really i was jst acting to be. hahaha` tht scene was so funny

BLACK

2005-11-02T07:55:00.000-08:00

i was back to myself last nyte all thanks to my unprettaye .
im happy till i cldnt get to slp .
shopped` and back home .
i went to slp and woke up for dinnr and tvs
the drama shows are getting bored `
brought ice-cream frm DOMINIC , he got his commission all thanks to ME :D
okays . im sooooooooo bored lar .
hellos ? aint hols meant to be a happy one ? urghs` mine is like totally opp. okays' shan't complain so much -
the wrld is painted black again .
AHH ! IM SOOOOOOO BORED LAR '
shopping were nice but im not a rich kid-
it will be GRT if i can have many shopping bags in my hands the next coming shopping trip .
the devil died because of arguing with the angel because of me`
i couldnt slp now lar' i got no one's company
and is DARK and LATE . not really late but 12.05 am .
i feel like staying ovr at my granny's place meanwhile i can help her with chores and she wont be tired :D
thn i will get fatter cos of her wonderful dishes *SLURPS
thn granny will be giving me $2 per day ` hahs- she said tht cos she wantd me to stay ((:
but thn thr will be no computer at all . only TVS and cousin's company
i will miss people and my MOM ! hahs-
they said they will be with me and accompany when im bored or what but they lied .
*BANGBANG ` i shall shoot them
heartless creatures ? HAHA` my unprettaye so CUTE; she made my NIGHT
i wna draw but im pathetic okays-
i dont have eraser lar' BUY ME ONE :D
why does mom care so much for bro ? ):
i tld you people ! im jst like a nobody to evryone .
i want to runaway from home ((:
PEOPLE = MEANIES
):
ice-cream can't make me happy anymre .
they all melted whn they sees me ` that's bad lar
SPARKLES ! uh huhs . i want to play .
roller-blading i want them ! but no blister this time round :D
eat i want them but dont make me become fatter .
running i want them but lazy to get up early .
OKAYS- i can't slp so HOW HOW HOW ?
tell me what shld i do ? count the sheeps ? it doesnt wrks-
sms ? but who and my bill is EXPENSIVE
i shall try to HAHAHAHAHA- more '
ahh ! my muslim friend died and couldnt celebrate her NEW YEAR'
jo killd it . GRR'
; it died because of me

# twentyFIFTH

2005-11-01T05:28:00.000-08:00

i dont knw how many nights im going to cry .
probably about 20+ days . OKAYS' my eyes will be swollen , i knw .
no one will understand`
how brkn-heartd you will feel ?
first time in the history he evr says that to you .
i cried hard i can say , i couldnt help to control those tears frm rolling down .
what can i do ?
i off my phone , i thought abt it .
i slp , i dreamt abt it .
i couldnt eat , i couldnt smile .
evrything i do i will thought abt it .
you knw how much it meant to me ?
i knw you ppl sure say cheer up lar ? but you think it is easy ?
it aint easy okays !
only sme will understand but i can't take it .
whn i knw is my faults , i try to change but you ignore it .
what can i do ?
cry cry cry ? cry also can't solve problems ?
slit slit slit ? slit so nice meh ?
# twentyFIFTH
that what i can rmb the MOST .
what if i wait and nothing gd comes out in the future ?
i will probably cry like hell'
i hate MYSELF because of YOU .
what other sacrifices can i make just to make you smile ?
*ILOVEDONAVAN !
BRKN-
are we going to be HI-BYE friends ? hurrs .
let's pray then*

WHR ARE YOU

2005-10-30T21:46:00.000-08:00

i couldnt believe tht i actually TEARED whn i hung up the call jst now .
OKAYS- IM SOOOOOO BORED NOW .
whr's evryone ?
fangjie ? huibing ? huiqi ? huishan ? shirui ? boochuan ? jo ? karen ?
whr's them ?
GLADYS ! i want to drink . i probably get addicted to it alrdy . but is so NICEEEEE .
joy's chalet was nice . superb NICEEEEE .
prtnr cycled and brought me ard , tht was SWEET . (:
prtnr ! bring me ard agn ! OKAYS ?
back to chalet, evryone was tired and they played cards and all and we took pics .
during the late evening we went to shop for things and back thn start the fire . okays` we are so lousy at it larr' took so long to start and in the end an uncle came and help . hahs-
eugene and weekiat evn had a competition lar' they want to see who bbq bettr . lols'
im addicted to it alrdy lars' it so nice but shirui dont let me .
packup and we went to beach before evryone went hm .
it was super DARK larrs' amy gladys eugene and me were suprb scared so we held on the ppl .
hahs- i got my PRTNR to protect me . ((:
we playd sparkles and those guys were so CARING . hahs-
we tlk abt space stars planets . and we've got a conclusion tht is those guys knw mre abt science than us . hahas .
thn it was late so evryone went hm .
eugene and me hire cab and went hm and it took so long to hire one .
now , i understand how god answer prayers already . ((:
in fact , he did answers all the prayers you make .
reach hm and eugene accompany me to wait for lift and he walkd hm .
AHH! I MISSED THEM LARR' MY SUNSHINE .

`twodil

2005-10-28T08:13:00.000-07:00

we ended the last day of sch with tears , photos and hugs .
i will miss them larrs .
amy, i saw your post alrdy . I WILL MISS YOU !
hah` thank for tolerating the pain ytd , tht bite . (((:
dont cry hor' i will go and find you one ! (=
taken lots of photos and thought about those poses . haha` they are so cute lar . i love them !
for the first time , i kissed my SHIRUI and GIRLFRIENDS . hahs-
my prtnr my darhlings my lovelys my girlfriends those guys ..
i will miss them !
anw, ppl ! i lost all the links alrdy . =x tag me w/ the haloscan and tell me your links ! ((:

GOODoldDAYS

2005-10-26T06:04:00.000-07:00

hey, (: im here to POST again . haha`
saw my girlfriend's blog and she's tlking abt me ! saw my big name and it's actually the first one okays . HAHAHA`
i love her larrs ! ((:
days are like so boring .
im going to paint my wrld in black&white .
my prtnr says he will miss me and he LOVE me ! WOAH-
'cos i can bring him laughters . and i always take pics w/ him .
w/o me ard, he said his phone will be useless . prtnr, dont worry .
you still can come and find me and we shall take pics !
he tld me im the best prtnr he evr had ! haa`so sweet larrs .
like.no.other™ says:
den i shld say i love u as long as i can ..!!
like.no.other™ says:
i will miss u alot .. no one take pic wif me anymore
like.no.other™ says:
my best partner ever ..
see ? im not lying . (((= he's darn sweet .
SO TOUCHED .
2 mre days yeaps' im going to spend it nicely .
i will miss those GOODoldDAYS-
i will miss them lar !
iLOVEthem ! ((((:

dumb .

2005-10-23T08:24:00.000-07:00

said sth today which i dont knw i will say tht kind of wrds- hahas .
nvms' who dont want to change for the bettr ?
have you evr say to someone how much he/she mean to you ? try it lars ! is some kind of weird feeling but actually you will touched the person . hahas . anw, i dont knw whd am i tlking abt lars .
omgomg, can't imagine . SHIRUI'S CRAZY OVER ME .
i only said ' I LOVE YOU ' to her and she wants to fly alrdy .
friendship is the most precious flower of all . says:
omgomg . i'll be flying in the air nw . you said you love me.
hahas . she's so cute larrs !
she said I LOVE YOU . says:
dear . you jst call me dear .
she said I LOVE YOU . says:
oh my oh my .
hahas . isnt she crazy ovr me ? oh wells . tht gd larrs . haa` she loves me ! and she said she will wait for me no matter what . too bad` i will be jo's soon . she gna marry me ! dont be jealous shirui . ((: tht's us , girls .
girls jst wna have fun . (((:
my mom jst askd me if i have sch and i tld her no . she thought i was lying to her larrs ! hahas . if she dont believe tht means i have to wake up tmr . haha`
anw, tmr will be town-ing w/ huishan . it will be fun !
here's your big name too !
GDNYTES''

THOSE WERE THE DAYS .

2005-10-22T00:36:00.000-07:00

HERE i am, blogging abt my FRIENDS .
'cos i want to let them knw tht they ROCKS my wrld .
tues will be the last PE i will have w/ them . so we are going to be unite and play with othrs . ((:
seeing how they laughed at my silly jokes yesterday made me realised how much we have spent together . laughing at stupid things, crappings and all . taking pictures, endure each othr's PMS . hugs and cries we had , those sad yet happy memories we shared . they made me realised tht actually friends love power is actually so STRONG . this kind of friends love is different from whd i have from fangjie, huiqi and huibing though they are always thr for me .
is different i knw . actually i dont really have gd friends in pri sch which means i always hangout w/ fangjie and huibing and huiqi they all . i dont really have gd friends in cls and most of the time i will be like alone . so now, my friend made me realised something which is friends are jst a part of myself .
w/o them i really dont knw how things will be like . two yrs and it past so fast ehs .
we can still remember how we started tlking to one another and all .
staying back and did our dnt, waiting for each othr to finish the wrk .
accompany one anothr to hand in late wrk, treating each othr chocolates and swts . the smiles they gave each othr are jst part of the things in life tht can make othrs smile .
i want to tell them they do rcks my wrld . jst the colours of my life . ((:
to shirui:
your my sweetest darhling and swthrt i had !
she hugged me whn im sick and doing my hmwrk for me whn im lazy . teaching me maths sums and all . making me realised tht actually thr are alot of ppl who LOVE me too .
she's my honey too . whenevr im upset she will be thr for me .
it must be tough on you to endure my shits stuffs , those nonsense .
those were the days we had together . your my sunshine . ((((:
to boochuan:
my girlfriend . though i realised we are not as close as before but i want you to knw tht your still in my hrt ! ((:
being thr for me so much, handing in late hmwrk and all . staying back to complete the dnt wrkpiece, teaching me stuffs had fun w/ me . craps with me and listen to my sorrows and nonsense . tht's so grt . i want you to remember tht i'll be thr for you always . dont be pessimistic hor' mst look on the bright side kayes . dont be moody alrdy cos you still have ME . i LOVE you !
to joleen&karen:
girlfriends . jo always thr for me whenever im upset . she will be the first to hug me whn i cried . she always the one treating me chocolates and all . and of cos' she is the one who always scored the goal and make our team win ! she's like anothr part of me , trying her best to make me smile . girl, you mst TAKECARE of yourself . dont be SICK alrdy . though i jst started to tlk to karen cos of sme rubbish stuffs tht made us quarrel and all . forgive and forget tht whd we did and here we are still as friends . she become a gd girl i can say and she's always asking me ' are you okay ? must takecare ' swt girl . ((:
i love them much much .
to eleanor&wynee:
MY DEAR ELEANOR . she's the ONE ! always listening to my nonsensical stuffs . haha` my cute one larrs . anothr girl who always ask me ' are you alright ? you sure ? ' hahs . she's afraid of playng ball and she taught me how to make funny faces . im her protector too, i always protect her and scold othrs who bullied her . how childish we are but yet the BESTIES . she did so much things for me too , scrribles and all . my lovely ! im nt really so close to wynee but she the one always come and tlk to me . she's nice and all ! ((:
to amy&yeeting&charmaine&joycelyn:
hahs . the pokemon family i can say ! they are the cute ones too . always making the cls laughd and always come up with rubbish and nonsense . they are the ones whom always supplied the cls with swts and jelly ! hehes . ((:
to gladys:
though i jst become close to you bcos of sme arguements in the past , they are meant to be forgotten . forgive and forget ! haas;
dont be a silly girl anymore okays ? look on the bright side kayes . you will be my best team-mate in game ! ((: i'll be thr for you !
to fengru&eugene&aristotle:
my sunshine ! hahas . they are the cute ones larrs . though making fun of me but they are always thr for me whn im sick or upset .
fengru will always ask me to cheer up and ask whd wrong and help me to solve whdevr probs . aris will be the one helping me w/ my wrk and asking me ' you understand mahs ? ' hahs- eugene is my HI^5 friend larrs . evrything will HI^5 de . childish but yet they are fun . I LOVE THEM PLENTLY PLENTLY ! (((:
i love my friends cos they rcks . teaching me and stuffs .
((:
i will so so cry on the last day of sch and so im going to make use of the time to spend with them ! teehee . ((=

BANGBANG'

2005-10-20T03:29:00.000-07:00

bangbang .
took back all the results ytd and i PASSED my history which is so UNBELIEVEABLE larrs .
hahhs- im VRH HAPPY . more than wrds can say .
wheees . cheers for me uhs . ((: this shows tht i've studied hard for it .
failed lit, expected 'cos i dont understand the passage . but failed by one mark so mdm woo sure will help me gain back one mark ! (=
super angry w/ art . gave so lil' marks . urghs` i think i draw vrh well le but still vrh lil'
so nowadays school are like so BORING larrs . stayed in cls and did nothing . next week is last week of school alrdy . so fast yahhs-
one yr pass so fast ehs .
i will miss my clsmates one larrs though i still remembered last time i kept saying my cls sucks but hey, we are UNITE larrs' like tht day during PE, same old thing had game but we vs the sec threes . after tht sat in a circle and played concentration .
so so, i will miss them ! ((:
though some ppl make me angry but some are still the colours of my life . like eugene, he can be playful but yet is my HI^5 friend . hahas . fengru is anothr one, my PRECIOUS PRTNR . aris's too, my sunshine .
so much laughters, sad & happy memories w/ them .
tmr gna choose wht cls to go in alrdy . i haven decide !
so i think i will be in the last few cls larrs . :/
did lots of scrriblings in cls today . all my thoughts .
recently have been sleeping early perhaps due to the frkng' sickness . hahars .
have been spending alot of money recently yahhs- hey, nono . i didnt larrs . or did someone stole my money ? HAHAHARS' im so BROKE larrs . i guess i wont have enough money to get his pressie . AWWW
back again, i think im a bad friend . teach me how to be a good friend !
huibing ar huibing, dont think so much kayes .
pray to god whn your unhappy . im sure he will listen to you .
rmb, he's not busy okays ?
dont be down kayes ? you still have ME .
i'll be with you through your darkest moment .
let me knw whn sth is not right hor' ((:
;i pray and hope.

oh wells.

2005-10-18T04:05:00.000-07:00

took back results. some were above my expectations but some jst ..
oh wells. is too late anw.
waited for big sis after sch and went off to pizza.
so much chats larrs! HAHS- tlk so much. almost evrything i guess.
went off and it was raining cats and dogs.
took bus and went to somewhr near my hse and chatted agn.
hahas. i cldnt believe larrs. we think ALIKE and alot mre.
urghs. coughing like dont knw wht SHIT.
'DONTASKMETOSEEDOCTOR !
i guess i shall have APPLE thn.
; an apple a day keeps a doctor away .
(((:
* It all started with a smile and ended off with a goodbye.
heard sme things which i dont wish to listen. oh wells.
if only ..
if only the wrld cld turn upside dwn;
DONT'
* SAYNOMORE"
i pray. pray that those dreams will turn into reality.
change the reality into dreams.
yeas. that wht i want it to be like.
im mad ? oh wells. i dont knw'

will you love me ?

2005-10-17T07:49:00.000-07:00

have you ever thought of how much you love and care for me ?
giving me everything as much as you can ?
whenever i thought of these things i will tend to cry.
i dont want this to happen.
now, you know what really happened to me.
i want to know how are you feeling but yet nothing comes out from your mouth and not even your tears.
i yearns for a big hug from you since when im in primary 5.
where is it ?
i rather you tell me how you feel then keep quiet.
the more you keep quiet and say nothing, the more i will just hurt myself.
ms ong once said that ' if you want attention, i'll give you detention '
please, i want your care, your love and your attention.
say im stupid or what, i slit myself partly is to catch your attention.
i failed to do so.
i guess you will never understand me.
what is family love ? natalie asked if i have family outing ? NO, that the answer.
why do you care for him so much than you can for me ?
did i hurt your feelings ? i did not. i dont dare to do anything to hurt you because i know you will be upset.
now, you cares so much about brother and im just a nobody to you.
ever thought of how brother broke your heart last time ? you kept crying non-stop and when things goes wrong for you and him then you will tend to come closer to me and care for me.
what is this about ?
what if im the one who broke your heart ? how will you feel ?
am i still your daughter ? please say yes.
i dont want to cry.
i know you will never have a chance to see this but i just want to express my thoughts out.
i do love them.
went out last night alone.
because of them again. wild thoughts.
the streets so dark and slippery and is cold.
yearns for a hug and a hot drink.
went walking around in the dark alleys.
is so scary and felt giddy one moment.
i thought i lost my way but manage to find my way out.
thank god, he protects me from the evil and harm. (((:
came home at 11.
yupp- you didnt call me at all. knowing that im out, you dont even bother about it.
i went out of the house even w/o my dad's consent.
what if i runaway from home ? you couldnt even be bother ?
actually i wanted to runaway from home but so cold outside.
still got where nicer compare to your lovely sweet home ?
your lovely sweet home still is the best right. with the warmth.
thank god, he asked me to take keys and i took.
im sick already. coughing come and flu just stay and accompany it.
i told you im sick and you just asked me to take the flu medicine.
haha. how WONDERFUL your care is.
my friends care more about me.
i only want your attention.

back to before_

2005-10-16T00:59:00.000-07:00

SICK ?! urghs .
frm a small flu to a big flu frm a big flu to a sore throat .
AAHH ! i dont want . 'cos i want to enjoy myself .
gna get my shoppings done . (((:
piercings ? i want 'em ! (((:
movies ! i want ! :D
ben&jerry ice-cream , im waiting .
-------,--------
what am i gonna do nw?
i cant seem to think of anything else.
ur prty face.
ur perfect skin.
i lurve the way ur hair blows in the wind.
everytym u smile, i feel the warmth fromwithin'
-yours truly

* IF ONLY

2005-10-15T08:59:00.001-07:00

if only that moment were to last , i will be the happiest girl.

BEN&JERRY.

2005-10-14T08:41:00.000-07:00

finally; evrything's ovr.
i thnk i tried my best alrdy. i admit i nv mug so hard before .
hm econs is the last paper .
tday's the last day . i will miss them real lots . x((
AAHH! who can bring me out ?
i dont wna stay at hm it will only make me become fatfat .
getting all the junk food to eat slp watch tv . tht's my life .
I DONT WANT .
i want MONEY and SHOPPINGS !
mre MONEY to PAMPER myself .
stayd at hm today . had noodles biscuits ice-cream milo ..
soon; i will become a fatfat larrs .
i WANT BEN&JERRY ! (((:
i WANT mre CLOTHES ! (((:
it will be GRT if ppl can get all these for ME . (((:
whn im down i only WANT BEN&JERRY and othr ICE-CREAM ! :D

* i dislike empty promises

;CRUSHED WRLD W/O YOU

# tumbled.

2005-10-12T03:36:00.000-07:00

tumbled .
/ brkn-
i promise .
MAKEMYDREAMSCOMETRUE !
` back to the past .
DONT DONT DONT .
those songs , those smiles . i could still remember .
NO NO NO .
sighh` is a shit feeling .
COULD YOU PLEASE HELP ME , ELEANOR SIM ? ):
sighh`
# IS ALL ABOUT YOU .
so grey yet beautiful .
FORGETMENOT''
CRUSHED.

NONEOFYOURBUSINESS''

2005-10-07T19:21:00.000-07:00

you dont need to care 'cos it's NONEOFYOURBUSINESS''
i thought it will be gd to you so tht we can be bettr off DEAD soon ?
he's so ASSY . im going to bite him on his hand HARD . (((:
dwn w/ flu now badbad`
im going to be a historian for the weekends . hahas
i can't afford to flunk my science . AWWW
*STUMBLED&FALL

FATFAT.

2005-10-04T02:50:00.000-07:00

i can't believe that your so PETTY .
alright alright- if i can i will choose not to knw you .
your a guy yet not gentleman but PETTY'
you made my mood goes so LOW . *RAHHHS-
TMR TMR ! after TMR i'll be on my own to fight my enemies .
pray tht i'll do well and WORK HARD now .
dont be a LAZYBUMBUM and STUDY SMART .
pray tht i'll be SHIRUI liddat so HARDWORKING .
stay up late and STUDY evryday .
must start to MUG alrdy . cant lose to ppl . hahas .
kiasu i knw . but who aint kiasu ?
oh' SHIT . i realised i have grown FATTER'
URGHS; seriously !
idontwnabeaFATFAT . right shirui ?
i wna get slim . HAHAHARS''
today the last time before exams i get to play w/ my clsmates .
AWW . ;MISSES .
BIGSIS`
oh yeaps` indeed it was NICE . superb NICE . ((=
we think so ALIKE larrs . haas`

lovesPRTNR.

2005-10-01T08:48:00.000-07:00

I LOVES MY PRTNR !
he does evrything well for me .
cheer me up . teach me stuffs .
tlk craps w/ him .
he tld me to change my BULL's temper .
aris afraid tht i will do stupid things agn .
and he tld me nt to .
he once said this to me ' you siao arh . cut yourself still want to be a xin li yi sheng ? liddat how to be ? ' [ in chinese ]
i tld him i wna experience mre things . BLAHS-
jst craps larrs . i only feel the pain myself .
dont worry ehs ? unprettyaye . im fine . (:

c'mon .

2005-09-30T21:59:00.000-07:00

;things are still the best with them around .

i pray for WRLD PEACE .

why am i always listening to different parts of the story ?
it will nv be a complete one .
this and that .
it isnt funny nor interesting .
i dont wna listen to anymore of your nonsensical stuffs .
c'mon larrs . is the PAST anymore . so jst SHUTUP .
i PREFER to go back to the PAST .
with HER ard, things are always the best .
i didnt knw tht bcos of HIM here goes OUR FRIENDSHIP .
alrights- here you go agn . thinking is my faults for evrything .
let it be thn-
i dont think we will even be a HI-BYE frnnd .
for goodness sake, why evryone pushing the blames on ME .
* SLITS CUTS SLASH'D BLEED .
DAMNED THE WRLD''
nobody knws . nobody sees it .
i pray tht my life will be the same as UNPRETTYAYE .
she's leading a much bettr life than mine .
:(
im planning of whr to go alone .
who to look for .
raining heavily

DONTLIE.

2005-09-29T05:01:00.000-07:00

DONT LIE TO ME IF YOU BELONGED TO ONE OF MY ROCKKRRS IN MY LIFE`

getIT?
i dont want a 'THE END' to this neithr do you want RIGHT?
TELLMEYOUNVLIE .
;FORALLYOUWANT''

BEEBEE .

2005-09-27T02:32:00.000-07:00

BEEBEE is alone today .
the clock ticks very slow .
i ADMIRE jack frm IONA COLLEGE . he left me a gd impression .
he doesnt have blonde hair like othrs do . he's rathr talkative bt HANDSOME . ((:
i had alot to study so i mst be hardworking now .
; what is the most important thing you ever had in your life ?

LESBIAN .

2005-09-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

IM SHIRUI'S LESBIAN PRTNR .
she's mine sugar . bitter . sunshine . rain . girlfriend . boyfriend . husband . wife . salt . vinegar . tomato . chilli . heaven . earth .
MY ABSOLUTE EVRYTHING .

boyfriend . THIRD

2005-09-26T06:00:00.000-07:00

meant only for boyfriend .
yeaps , is you .
i have thought of already . what you said are ABSOLUTELY CORRECT .
no one can stand my sickening attitude . my punches and bites .
lols'' ONLY YOU CAN .
no one can ever tolerate all that except you . ((:
i know your trying very hard to keep this stable but sometimes both of us really are at faults too .
though sometimes you made me SAD and i made you JEALOUS .
so that's fair uhs ! (x
;LOVES&MISSES . <3

brkn-

2005-09-24T06:54:00.000-07:00

im utterly disappointed in you .
i jst feel like slapping you to wake you up .
;say THANKYOUS .
a diff person i used to knw . WHYS
i jst can't seem to accept your sudden changes .
betray your friends ? is tht wht your mom taught you ?
drop tht subj .
wht abt you ?
im REALLY utterly disappointed in you .
nt the one is used to knw . mre like a suckkr now .
POOF*
- slashd'bleed;
you made me teared`
whn you need me you love me, whn you dont need me you throw me aside .
only shirui knw wht happened .
THANKYOUS darhling .
if nt for you, i dont knw i can find who to complain to .
why things have to turn out this way ?
IWANNABEWITHYOU.
canyousayyouloveme?
alrights-

_ ` YOU WERE MY VOICE WHEN I COULDN'T SPEAK . 800 says:
i cut myself agn .
like.no.other™ says:
.. hai sad
like.no.other™ says:
why

PRTNR DOES CARE ABT ME ! *WHEEEES . ;LORVES
alrights-
BASTARDS .
DAMNED THE WRLD .
SUCKKRS .
` CUTS SLASHD BLEED .
*DAMNED.

real dumb

2005-09-22T06:09:00.000-07:00

im real dumb .
i needed six ppl to help me w/ my maths and is a simple maths qns .
lols''

boos .

2005-09-21T07:31:00.000-07:00

i promise i will go crazy if they were to repeat that in front of me again .
*POOF;
off to study soon .
that prince of mine kept nagging at me to STUDY .
alrights-

b'cos you loved me .

2005-09-20T05:34:00.000-07:00

you were my strength when i was weak .
you were my voice when i couldn't speak .
you were my eyes when i couldn't see .
you give me wings when i couldn't reach .
you give me faith when you believe .
* BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME .
i knw i knw .
i knw my GIRLFRNNDS LOVE ME .
SR , JO & BC .
SR want to chase me . LOLS''
ANW , YO BRINS . HAPPY BDAY ! ((:
hahhs- ILOVETHEM . yeaps -
b'cos they fill my life w/ colours though they are cheeky ones .
we jst like to bully each othr .
they seems like my brothrs . HAHAHARS''
blood is thickr than water .

YOU WERE MY VOICE WHN I CLDNT SPEAK .

2005-09-19T05:32:00.000-07:00

wassup w/ my life .
i doubt nobody knw tht including myself .
how cld anyone knw how i feel whn i myself dont evn knw ?
i dont wna study . tmr the chinese tcher will be back agn .
URGHS' here goes my day for tmr .
i jst wna play during pe lesson tmr .
; YOU WERE MY VOICE WHEN I COULDN'T SPEAK .
* BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME .

how to turn the wrld upside dwn ?

2005-09-18T00:03:00.000-07:00

things aint the same anymore . NO MORE ALRDY !
; somehow i dislike the life im leading now .
* dont ask whys bcos i dont knw how to express it too .
if only the wrld cld turn upside dwn , things will be much easier , much diff .
may i knw how to turn the wrld upside dwn ?
if i were to think carefully , things wont turn out liddat .
i only knw tht evry steps you take , thr's a consequence .
*RAHHHHS-
im jst getting restless .
im starting to hate evryone agn . :(
dont do tht to me agn , i will hate you . fcukrr .
can i turn the time back ? please .
BASTARDS . BITCHES . ASSYS . ASSHOLES . FUCKRRS . SUCKRRS .
WHTEVR .
huibing ar huibing , dont think too much okays ?
we will be thr for you . (: dont do silly acts alrdy .
I JST WANT TO BE LOVED BY EVRYONE !
whys . i dont understand .
i dont want to have crying spells at nights .
NO . NO . NO .

evil ppl go to hell .

2005-09-16T05:51:00.000-07:00

had a badbad and gdgd day .
whtevr . i dont wna mention anymore .
evil ppl shall go to hell .
thank yous darhling shirui . being thr for me during the tightest moment .
your hugs and evrything is swt . IM TOUCHED . you nv blame me bt instead wna help me . THANK YOUS . ((:
finally , is done .
no more proj wrk anymore . ; hard work pays .
bro's back hm .
HAHAHARS'' i cldnt help laughing at him whn i saw him w/ his BOTAK HEAD .
lols'' indeed it was ROUND and yet FUNNY . and he calld himself ' CUTE ' .
indeed he dont look like a civilised person . he dont look like a police more like a criminal larrs' ((=
BLAHS .
dont feel gd now .
same as tht day . digestive system nt working well .
BLAHS .
my clsmates are evil ppl but nt as evil as those f*cking ppl .
they made me laugh toos . CHEEKY GUYS''
lets' not quarrel anymore , shall we end it with a fullstop ?
tday me and eleanor are being vrh cute kayes .
lols'' we had so much funny faces . so CUTE'
she reminds me whn im a lil' kid . hees'

isolation .

2005-09-14T07:57:00.000-07:00

FCUK*
isolation .
donttalktome .
scribbled fcuk in front of my mom .
idontcare .
idontwnalisten . evryonejstSHOOAWAY .
ijstwnabeALONE .
cutsandalltht .
slashd''
all you have to do is to shut up and i will appreciate .
thanks yous .
everything shall be written down in blood ..
wrds and scrribles .
dontbothrabtme . dontbenoisy .
FCUK*

captain ball .

2005-09-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

had captain ball tday .
so tiring . backaches . here pain thr pain .
shouted here and thr , this and tht .
im getting old alrdy , boochuan said tht .
pity eleanor .
bro wnt to the army tday .
it seems weird to have less ppl in the hse .
nvm' he gna be back on fri . (:
im mre interested on seeing how he look like whn botak . HAHAHARS .
hope evrything goes well for the IPW .
; sweeter than before .

nonsensical .

2005-09-12T05:55:00.000-07:00

things are getting out of hand .
nvms' i shall remain calm and relax .
i excuse myself for tday . bcos it rained so i cldnt bring my maths textbk hm . im gna memorise those formulas .
thr's this BUG in my cls whom wrote this in cls ' sch reopens , science test chp 1 - 8 ' .
im gna kill tht BUG who wrote tht . bullshits ` thr isnt any test lors . luckily i nv study . hohos .
evrything jst ..
nonsensical and bullshits `
you dont understand us bcos you nv take the initiative to go and ask us .
you'll nv understand us if you still continue to be like this .
i felt tht thr's a glass jst in btw us . difficulty in communication .
or generation gap ? bt hello ? we are the same generation larrs'
no mre excuses .
you once tld me to try look at things frm diff sides or angles .
bt have you apply this to this situation ? NOPE'
knw whd your doing , dont think your the best .
YOU AINT `
THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK , YOU ARE NOT ANYWAY BETTER THAN OTHERS .
im going to wrk hard to prove you WRONG .
* huishan big sis ;
whd happen ? (( : be HAPPY be HAPPY .
dont think too much okays ?
SMILE LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO''
* eleanor twinnie ;
thanks for evrything , HONEY ! : D
-iloveyou(:
* shirui darhling ;
TEENY WEENY HUGS ! (x
# dreams big , big dreams ?
dont crashed my dreams .
i wna have alot of occupations whn i grow up .
i wna be a xin li yi sheng , hawker , business woman and still thinking ..
; once a idiot , always a idiot . xD
OKAYS'' im gna watch some INTERESTING show alrdy .
[ eleanor ` saw this ? ] INTERESTING KAYES ?
dear GOD , i pray for my friends that they will do well in their prelims . *=)

SLPOVR .

2005-09-09T22:00:00.000-07:00

band was tiring ytd . YAWNS*
celebrated rachick's bday at swensens .
thn wnt to huiqi hse for stayovr w/ huibing .
if fangjie were to go , it will be mre fun .
wnt to 7-11 at 12 plus to have cup noodles at the playgrd .
came back . calld ppl and disturb them frm their slp . hahars .
huibing is horrible cos she dont let me to slp .
she evn on the techno songs in the MIDDLE OF THE NYTE .
and she evn playd the wave hoop at 2 plus .
thn evryone wnt to slp and woke up . haas;
breakfast at hans . ( : thn came hm .
wantd to slp bt whn to bath thn cant slp alrdy . tht's bad .
i dont wna have SERIOUS EYES BAGS .
gna go and slp thn wake up in the evening to do stuffs alrdy .

SAY NO EVIL . SEE NO EVIL . HEAR NO EVIL .

IDOITS .

BREAKFAST FOR THREE . ((:

to : MY SPECIAL FRNND .
hey . i hope you can see this yahhs ?
anw , jst telling you . i dont mean tht way .
your my frnnd , so i have to do my part to stp you .
i dont want you to suffer . i dont want you to jst leave us alone .
and jst let this friendship fade away itself .
the feeling isnt grt . oh yes , i missed the past alot .
those laughters and fun we had . (( :
HANDSOME . i will call you tht as long as you like .
dont let this affect your studies . yeaps? i knw your hardwrking .
STUDY HARD . dont wna see you next yr .
dont be a silly anymore . (x
i dont want to be a bad frnnd . i can't jst liddat see you suffer in front of myself , bcos i will detest myself mre .
cmon' dont be liddat yahhs ? CHEER UP .
a true frnnd will really help you to ovrcome evrything .

jealous .

2005-09-07T05:46:00.000-07:00

im jealous .
dont ignore me pls . :/
watch the maid . indeed was scary .
covrd my eyes throughout the movie . ((: hahars .
saw leon and took photo with him and huiqi .
indeed he was friendly . I THINK HUIQI HAD FALLEN FOR HIM .
too bad thn . he've got a GF .
it will be diff if he was DERRICK or ZIWEN .
*smirks .
ding dang dong*

COMPLAINTS .

2005-09-06T05:48:00.000-07:00

i think i have got alot to post tday .
complaining abt this and tht . hahars . though i tld bodyguard to forgive and forget but i cldnt .
i loathe mdm png . such a liar . wonderd how cld she be a tcher .
she's a frkng asshole . she said tht lesson shall start at 8.30 and end at 11 in the end , it ended in 1+ .
WTH ! DOES ANYONE HAVE 5 HRS OF CHINESE LESSON W/ ONLY A 15 MINS BRK ?
and she still askd ppl to stay back for oral .
can't she jst be considerate ? GRR-
nvms' forgive and forget shall saves the day .

i thought they will understand me but they nv .
all they thought of is HER .
alrights-
i shall give up .

HRMS . wnt to take bus early in the mrng alone .
thn after remedials was w/ clsmates thn end up walkin ard alone agn .
yupps-
i dislike being alone .
who to look for and who to call whn im alone ? :/

IM SUCH A LAZY PIG .
i tld myself try to finish all the hmwrk by tday but in the end im so tired .

they jst seemed to be so happy w/o me ard .
so i think i shall leave them alone . (( :
YAYS !
; if your happy and you knw you clap your hands .

drifting . tht whd i cld sensed it .
HAIS .

watching the maid tmr ?
or shall i go watching alone ?
haas; i promised eugene i will send him hm bcos he's afraid .
i got sixth sense tht i wont be watching the maid w/ them .
HAHARS .

i wonded whd will happen if i off my phone the whole day .
i jst dont wish to have any contact with the wrld-

next tues , bro will be goin to the army alrdy .
things will be diff .
i will get to see him lesser . :/
thr wont be anyone to accompany me throught the late nyte anymore .
no more gd food to share w/ me alrdy .
he wont fight w/ me anymore .
I KNW I WILL MISS HIM .

; a picture can speak thousand wrds-
*shall not say anymore .

DREADFUL FEELING .

2005-09-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

tht dreadful feeling is back .
tht was so long time ago i think . few yrs ago whn i was in pri sch ..
it was like tht same feeling whn i knw tht evry tues and thurs i will have badminton practices in sch . knwing tht will have mr alex im afraid larrs . to me he's like a big bad wolf . scary enough to scare all the kids away .
so now knwing tht tmr i got tht sickening chinese tcher lesson .
i got tht dreadful feeling back agn .
really hate her . giving us like so muchh stress .
evrytime ting xie . is sickening .
i pity my hols larrs . EVRYDAY I HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCH .
while i dont think huibing or huiqi they all have any lessons . :/
UNFAIR .
I DONT WNA GO SCH TMR ALONE . :/
thinking of waiting for the bus alone .
walking alone . is DREADFUL !

SPECIALLY FOR MS TAN SI XUAN .

2005-09-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

this entry is specially for * MS TAN SI XUAN .

I MISS TAN SI XUAN . (x

true frnnds .

2005-09-02T22:04:00.000-07:00

updated*
i cldnt describe how i felt .
more than wrds- .
sad yet jealous .
disgusted .
terrified .
u n p r e d i c t a b l e .
ding dang dong*

i dont knw whd happened to me and her .
is jst drifting apart .
i wondered if she sense it too .
like whd i did wrong tht make her leave me alone . wth .
i felt so extra evr since she joined us .
i knw i will be alone someday .
whdevr . i dont care .
evn if i dont have girl-frnnds i still have my boy-frnnds in cls .
my prtnr and bodyguard .
whr's shirui ? she's missing . bodyguard also missing .

what are true frnnds ?
im glad tht i do have sme nice ones .
four brains are bettr than one . ((:
im glad i have them with me if not i will nt knw whd to do .
i cried 'cos im worried .
im nt afraid tht anything will happen to me .
at most , die only .
they wna protect me . huibing . fangjie . huiqi .
i prayed hard last night . hope nth will happen .

SEXY/PRTY is sick .
TAKELOTSOFCARES'' ((( :
; i will pray for you .
*GET WELL SOON .

I DISLIKE THE RAIN .

2005-09-01T01:01:00.000-07:00

duck egg said tht i've become mre and mre cheerful nowadays .
hahars .
i dislike the rain . GOAWAY - COMEBACKANOTHERDAY .

IM HHHUUUNNNGGGRRRYYY !
IM BBBOOORRREEEDDD !
IM LLLOOONNNEEELLLYYY !

donification

2005-08-31T08:28:00.000-07:00

i slept on his shoulders on the journey back ..

heroine . HEH-

2005-08-30T06:40:00.000-07:00

im aristotle's HEROINE . hahas .
im so kind to help him . (( :
i helped him to de-stress by helping him to find out whose the culprit who took his file . hahhs-
; violence cant solve evrything larrs' rmb tht hors .

tday pe lesson is definitely the MOST UNIQUE one .
the best pe . hahars . i had 2.4 km run while raining cats and dogs .
at first it was jst drizzling but after tht became raining cats and dogs .
pe tcher didnt stp me after running the second rd instead she askd me if i want to run nt . kind of weird tcher .
YESYES . i passed . (( :
all THANKS to : LEONARD , SHIRUI , BOO CHUAN , FENG RU , LIANG JIE , EE CHUN , SHI WEI AND KAREN .
they motivated me to run . esp , LEONARD .
he ran with me all the while , encouraging me to run . hahars .
im such a fat ass . i can't run fast .
i tld him tht i cldnt make it in time but he kept encouraging me .
HEH -
it was him whom make me passed . THANKS . (x
GIRLFRNNDS WERE VRH NICE TOO .
they stood under the rain and waited for me . SWT ENUFF .
walkd ard sch w/o any shoes . clsrm became our hm . hahhs-
took pics w/ them in cls . (((=
i always thought tht my cls jst sucks but afterall , they aint tht bad .
they DO rcks . esp , the 'ER' family . we are quite unite larrs'
i've got JELLY legs . HAHAHARS-
eugene had his fingers painted too . hahas .
i helped him with it . ( :

boyfrnnd .

2005-08-26T22:56:00.000-07:00

i dreamt of him .
how i wish i can turn the dream into reality . x(
he is gorgeous . lols'' : D

the tlk today is real bored .
frkng' ngiao tchers . why can't they fix air-cons in hall ?
evryone was like fanning themselves .
HAHAHARS'' we evn saw a parent slping .
you see . the tlk is so BORING larrs'
x( my bill going to be BOMBED agn .

cries .

2005-08-26T07:40:00.000-07:00

i cried last night , you know ?

i knew i will cry tonight .
i needed MEI REN YU'S BIG FAT HUGS BADLY .
i needed my BODYGUARD and PRTNR to entertain me .
i needed victor to talk to .
; tht fear in my mind .

GOAWAY .
JSTLEAVEMEALONE-

clsmates-

2005-08-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

they are not beasts at all .
at least they cared .
it show how much i mean to them !
teehees' (:
they love me ! hahas .
touched by them*
is still worth it by being sick .
i feel the care and concern within' them .
evn though im not feeling well but im vrh happy . (((:

i wish ..

2005-08-21T00:23:00.000-07:00

how i wish i cld have the similar birthday party as his .
with more than 23 gdfrnnds huggs'
presents and gifts .
`dreams and thoughts .

HAHAHARS' dreaming .

spoilt brat

2005-08-20T08:18:00.000-07:00

i hate you whn you make me angry .
i hate you whn you make me upset .
i hate you whn you make me jealous .
your jst tht lil' pampered kid -
it seems to be such a diff task to make you happy .
spoilt brat . <3

; iADOREderrick.
; iADMIREderrick.
; iMISSderrick.

and ..
; iADOREziwen.
; iADMIREziwen.
; iMISSziwen.
and ..

and ..
; iADOREspoiltbrat.
; iADMIREspoiltbrat.
; iMISSspoiltbrat.

BLAHS-

2005-08-18T04:50:00.000-07:00

ms tan is really sick in her mind .
fancy showing us those dirty pics .
HAHAS -
i dislike human beings . they suck bad .
everyone always claim tht they dont mind abt how othrs look but jst craps larrs'
they always say tht inner beauty is more impt but why everyone is looking for a partner who looks beautiful or handsome ?
jst craps larrs'
i have nv see guys whistling at ugly girls .
alright alright -
shld i trust her ?
she gave me a bad impression of herself too .
evn if i suck bad she doesnt rock eithr .
stop abusing your power -
you will only make othrs hate you more . (=
evn if your smart you dont have to waste othr ppl time, they need to study too .
evn if you look dwn on othrs you are nt any bettr too .
so whd if you have a highr status quo ?
you jst dont rcks . bias ppl -
* unreasonable -

the cuts on my hand .

2005-08-16T05:29:00.000-07:00

i cldnt resist .
im so troubled with lots of things .
no one can help me .
:/
no one understand .
evn those cuts on my hand doesn't solve my probs .
say im stupid .
say im crazy .
i dont care .
evrytime whn it come to all these i only want to cry and cuts-
i needed the time machine seriously ;

EXCUSES !

2005-08-14T00:14:00.000-07:00

WHENEVER THEY DID THE WRONG THING THEY WILL GIVE A EXCUSE .
WHENEVER WE DID THE WRONG THING AND WE TRY TO GIVE A REASON THEY NEVER SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND .
ALL THEY KNOW ARE SCOLDING AND PUNISHING .
IS ALL ABOUT UNFAIRNESS .
UNREASONABLE -
PEKCEK !
THEY NEVER SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND ME AND PERHAPS I DIDNT SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND THEM TOO .
PARTLY WAS MY FAULT BUT YOU NEED NOT USE SHOUTINGS .
ASSHOLES !

derrick's pics .

2005-08-13T09:39:00.000-07:00

see ? he's so HANDSOME . melt*

he's so CUTE .